Im so sick of everything. Im sick of life. I always wanted to grow up, but now i realize i wanted...

Im so sick of everything. Im sick of life. I always wanted to grow up, but now i realize i wanted too fast. This life? ha this life is a peice of shit. I cant believe my dads gone, hes really gone? forever..? no more calls? no more hearing him make weird comments to me? no more daddy. Its so hard without you dad, why did you leave us? why did it have to be you? i wish it was me that died. You didnt desereve to die.. You were too young.. I didnt even get to say goodbye to you.. I miss you so much daddy.. I wish i could hear your voice one more time…No one understands how hard it is without you..No one cares.. I feel so worthless without you.. I know we werent ever the closest.. i know i pushed you away alot.. But im sorry.. i wish i could make up for it all.. I wish i could hug you and tell you how sorry i am.. I miss you daddy.. I miss watching lizzie mcguire with you.. this fucking sucks.. Without you im no one.. I feel like im no one.. I need you.. You always knew how to make me smile.. Whos gunna walk me down to my husband when i get married..? i always wanted it to be you..now ill have no one.. Well i have sam.. But its just not the same.. Please come back.. PLEASE.. I really miss you…I have no one to talk to about you.. Its almost like everybodys forgotten ive lost you..I dont like talking about it..But sometimes i wish i had someone to talk to about it..Im glad you died in peace.. I know how much pain you were in..Your in a better place now.. But a better place then there is with me daddy.. i wish you would just come back…I need you daddy…